Inside of Me

They told me you were sick

Some parts of you not well

They said it might be best to take you

Before my life became hell


But what they didn’t know

What my outer layer would not show

Is how I felt you grow

And the way you made me glow


In the Ultrasound, I saw you

I saw your perfect frame

You were already in my heart

You already had a name


They advised me as best they could

Because it wasn’t looking good

But in my God I trust,

In a time like this, it is was a must


I hoped, I prayed and I believed

That God would let the doctors succeed

That your body would be healed

And God’s grace would be revealed


I fought for you day by day

Sometimes the pain won’t go away

But God renewed my strength

Everyday I’d go the length


I’d fight for you some more

Leave my fears at the door

I loved you all along

In my heart you put a song


But God had another plan

His purpose for this, I might not understand

I am still grateful I didn’t heed

When they said we won’t succeed


And take your life, while you were living

Inside me you were growing

The time we spent with you

Made forever our lives renew


You, I’ll always remember

Every January to December

The hard battles I had to fight

To do the thing that’s right


I trust in God day by day

Get down on my knees and pray

I wouldn’t trade it for anything

Because of you, a new song my heart sing


Forever, you’d be my angel

With a special place inside my heart

You changed my path forever

Even though, your time was short


With hair black, straight and silky

And skin soft, smooth and milky

When I held you to my chest

Those memories I like the best


I sang songs to you

While you sang to my heart

You were God’s little warrior

And courage to me you impart


My champion son

Who defied the odds

Since the battle begun


You, I will never forget

For you my heart won’t fret

Your life I’ll always celebrate

Do whatever it takes


To honor you with all of me

Live my life with divine glee

Fight my battles on my knee

And keep my eyes focus on He


You were a gift

I know this

And you changed me


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  1. avion pritchard April 13, 2012 at 3:00 am

    so beautiful

    • ashley smith May 24, 2012 at 1:50 pm


  2. Kelly May 24, 2012 at 1:35 pm

    So, Beautiful…..reminds me of my story with my first son who passed shortly after birth. I was told at 4 months he wouldn’t live and I should abort. But I left it in God’s hands where it should be and enjoyed my pregnancy. He only lived an hour and 3 minutes, but I would not take anything for that precious time.

  3. ashley smith May 24, 2012 at 1:50 pm


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